.:Bliss:.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

A mean entry + sucky noodles

Today is the 'perfect' day of the week,miraculously it didnt rain a drop. It is also an important day for me, a day which i get to recieve my own Gohonzon. I should be happy and proud. Instead,i'm filled with mixed feelings. I cant even put a smile on my face, laughters everywhere makes me worst.

Thanks to my guardian angel (who played the role of my parents) waited patiently till to end of my ceremony and to all my supporters too! Love ya lots!

But,i feel alone. Really alone. It should be a family event and yet where are my parents? Gone with the wind...Living under one roof with a terrorist is a hell of my life..i suffered in silence for 22 yrs and still suffering..The Great Wall of China does nothing. It sits there silently minding its own business whether rain or shine. Well, tt doesnt matter to me...it doesnt affect me anyway.

Terrorists are sadistic creatures, making others suffer is pure pleasure and oh..how much they love it..torturing you emotionally and physically is a wonderful thing to do. That's insane! I hate terrorist to bits...when can i ever get outta this shit?? How long need i have to wait? How long? How desperate i wanna fight for my way out but i just dont have the ability to. So i'm back to square..i just have to wait for someone to rescue me. Who? When? How? All question marks and no answer...

*day dreaming*
The happiest day of my life is to break free from e rule of the terrorists! Woot! I'm free! I'm practically day dreaming for this everyday..every minute..every second. I want this day to come true and i want it to happen!

My mood sucks and everything sucks...had instant noodles for dinner. That's not the kinda stuff makanguru eats. No choice.

My life hasnt got a choice..

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

temptations..........

I tend to snack alot recently..dont know why. Maybe i'm going thru some kind of stress erupting within me and snacking helps a great deal. Fortunately, I dont need to watch my weight..it always remain at 40kg and fluctuates to less than 41kg. Teehee! Not a good sign, who knows my cholestrol level is high? >_<'''


**Recommended under MAKANGURU-Sinner's Corner in End Nov 05.

Dipping fish chucks into mayonese is heavenly...=p My worries will disappear immediately..whahahha! The beer battered fish n chips is a nice afternoon snack to munch on when you feel like munching for good...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

My love for photography~ + Anyone reading my blog?

I decided to post 2 topics at one go! Realised that there aint any readers around huh? Take a look at my comments daily..all zero hero! One thing to highlight is i really put lots of effort (time + $$$ + transportation) for The Makanguru section. Well, all for the sake of sharing my love for food and the pleasure of eating so i hope you all can support 100% okie? Frankly speaking i dont wish to see it all gone down the drain.

Too busy with work nowadays that i hardly have the time to blog and load my tonnes of images. I took a break from work last friday..went traveling all over Singapore (partly lah) for some photo shoots..Oh i simply lurve this past time to bits. I can express certain moods thru my images or capture the 'feel' of that particular object. (watever it may be)

Food food food...its the best stress reliever! It makes me happy! =D Food photography requires some skill to look good. Mine is sub-standard but i'm working hard at it!
(all images taken with sony ericsson k750i)



My fav activity on saturday nights is to dig in a sushi platter at Ichiban Boshi (Esplanade br)..the cripsy lobster salad roll ($1.90) is one of my 'die die must order' dish. Cripsy on the outside and tangy inside! I cant stop eating for e next hour!



I went to Bedok Reservoir last friday noon to run some errands and to try out my fav wantan mee.



In the past, i used to join my parents every sunday mornings for breakfast + marketing at bedok. Each of us will order our usual breakfast, wantan mee ($2.00).Guess wat? We gotta wait for 1/2 hour due to its popularity among the bedok heartlanders! Glad to say..there aint any depreciation. Teehee! Superb!

I saw this exhitbition at Esplanade underpass, find it rather interesting..







This is one of my fav. Too bad, hp cams cant capture enough light..







This is taken at Orchard, outside Heeren building.



Saturday, October 22, 2005

feedback pls....

I've recieved some feedback tt you guys have problem loading the content section of this page (the right side). Its all because of IE browser's fault! Anyway, my page is best supported by Mozilla Firefox and Opera's browsers.

By the way...i'll be coming up with the NEW makanguru sinner's corner - featuring irresistable sinful treats and will be ready by end nov 05.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

the final decision

After what has happened today.....i've decided to QUIT (but i gotta give 5 days notice)...i didnt lose the battle with myself cos i know there will be another challenge i have to face. (to idle at home aimlessly and the high risk of having clashes with my ma)

A lose = lose situation

anyway....

may tommorrow be a better day..

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

the attention seeker's thoughts

Just got a temp job to last me for a few weeks and i'm not satisfied with it. Not because i cant adapt to the change in my enviroment. I may seem unadaptable initially ..but somehow i'll work it out, you see~. I dont mind slogging my guts out..i'm serious (just like this one, i have to slog every single minute for that meagre $6.50/hr ..unlike the past i can watch anime and relax all day)
I've got a problem. A problem that is not even a PROBLEM to anyone out there..a thing where everyone deals with having a neutral state of mind. To me, its a challenge,whereby my enviroment and 'events' in a situation affects me a great deal. This problem coexists with my current job and thoughts of quitting fills up my mind for the past 2 days. (i start work this monday)
I am really lost...to quit means i'm jobless and i'll end up in a pool of debt...bills...groceries and stuff~
does anynone out there knows what i'm going thru? Even those closest to me have absolutely no idea..of cos i dont blame them..i have to solve this myself. But i will be very very happy if theres's some kind soul who's willing to lend me their shoulder to cry on.
I'm screaming for attention at every single minute..i need attention...I really do..

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

hmmm~

I'm bored so i decided to surf around and i saw this...interesting numerology~


There are 13 letters in your name.
Those 13 letters total to 57
There are 6 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.


Your number is: 3


The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.

The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.


Your Soul Urge number is: 6


A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.

The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.

If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.

Your Inner Dream number is: 7

An Inner Dream number of 7 means:
You dream of having the opportunity to read, study, and shut yourself off from worldly distractions. You can see yourself as a teacher, mystic, or ecclesiastic, spending your life in the pursuit of knowledge and learning.


You entered: 9/9/1983

Your date of conception was on or about 17 December 1982.

You were born on a Friday
under the astrological sign Virgo.
Your Life path number is 3.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2445586.5.
The golden number for 1983 is 8.
The epact number for 1983 is 16.
The year 1983 was not a leap year.

As of 10/12/2005 3:39:17 AM CDT
You are 22 years old.
You are 265 months old.
You are 1,153 weeks old.
You are 8,069 days old.
You are 193,659 hours old.
You are 11,619,579 minutes old.
You are 697,174,757 seconds old.

There are 332 days till your next birthday
on which your cake will have 23 candles on it.

Those 23 candles produce 23 BTU's,
or 5,796 calories of heat (that's only 5.7960 food Calories!) .
You can boil 2.63 US ounces of water with that many candles.

In 1983 there were approximately 3.6 million births in the US.
In 1983 the US population was approximately 226,545,805 people, 64.0 persons per square mile.
In 1983 in the US there were 2,444,000 marriages (10.5%) and 1,179,000 divorces (5%)
In 1983 in the US there were approximately 1,990,000 deaths (8.8 per 1000)


Your birthstone is Sapphire
The Mystical properties of Sapphire

Though not meant to replace traditional medical treatment, Sapphire is used for clear thinking.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Agate, Moonstone, Lapis Lazuli


Your birth tree is

Weeping Willow, the Melancholy

Beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.


There are 74 days till Christmas 2005!

The moon's phase on the day you were
born was waxing crescent.

What am i?

You Are A: Lamb!

lambPeaceful and gentle, lambs have been used in religious imagery for millennia. Lambs are baby sheep, an animal tended by shephards since the dawn of history. As a lamb, you tend to stay together in a flock and graze on grassy land. Lambs don't mind being led and tend not to go off on their own.

You were almost a: Kitten or a Groundhog
You are least like a: Frog or a MouseWhat Cute Animal Are You?

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

The Grand Opening of..............

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Freedom = misery

I'm free at last! Free from tt irritating workplace and faraway from those irritating worms tt used to bugged me all day. Its kinda contradicting though..i should be happy abt it but i dont seem to feel this way. Instead i am feeling a little down..why??

There's a big hole in my pocket! I NEED HARD $$$!

Not for spending *erm..partly huh?* but to save up for my studies commencing next Jan 06 and also for my altar enshrinment this month..haiz...help! I hope money drops out from the clear blue sky..yeah..i'm bullshitting here~

So just pray hard and hope that i'll get a job soon..Meanwhile i better brush up my adobe skills to past time, i lost every bit of it..so disappointing...nvm..i'll pick it up again.