agony

i hate having a gate right infront of my door.
i hate walking along a back alley.
i hate not seeing/hearing noisy cars/children go by.
i hate seclusion emptiness and silence.
i hate that place for being extremely big.
i hate waiting for a min half a year so that i can get out asap.
i feel that i am banished to SISPEC (guys shd noe how tat environment is like)
although i dint experience it myself.
i hate to imagine the worst and e unexpected.
i hate being spaced apart from my plants.
i hate the feeling of helplessness.
i hate to see/hear sth which i dun wish to see/hear.
i hate to sleep in insecurity and fear.
i hate to return to that place everyday which i dun want to.
i hate to be distracted when i know i need to get impt stuff done.
i hate e feeling of fear creeping silently from behind.
i hate that place.